I often wonder how many times God has shaken His head at me?
For my lack of faith, my steps backward, etc. How many times have I failed Him?
Jesus lived and walked among his disciples, performing miracles at their sides. Yet even they lacked faith, and they didn’t understand at times. How frustrating it must have been to be man, and God at the same time. He was tempted just as we are and frustration leads to anger, though He as God rose above these temptations. Jesus walked perfect and blameless, though the men closest to Him didn’t see of understand.
“And the Pharisees came forth, and began to question with him, seeking of him a sign from heaven, tempting him. And he sighed deeply in his spirit, and saith, Why doth this generation seek after a sign? verily I say unto you, There shall no sign be given unto this generation. And he left them, and entering into the ship again departed to the other side. Now the disciples had forgotten to take bread, neither had they in the ship with them more than one loaf. And he charged them, saying, Take heed, beware of the leaven of the Pharisees, and of the leaven of Herod. And they reasoned among themselves, saying, It is because we have no bread. And when Jesus knew it, he saith unto them, Why reason ye, because ye have no bread? perceive ye not yet, neither understand? have ye your heart yet hardened? Having eyes, see ye not? and having ears, hear ye not? and do ye not remember? When I brake the five loaves among five thousand, how many baskets full of fragments took ye up? They say unto him, Twelve. And when the seven among four thousand, how many baskets full of fragments took ye up? And they said, Seven. And he said unto them, How is it that ye do not understand?”
I hold God’s word in my hands, that which brings life into my soul, and I have everlasting life waiting for me. Still I find myself content sitting in my warm home, cupboards packed full, car in the driveway…..with little to no thought for those left behind; the hungry, cold, alone and those with no future hope.